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“It made me laugh, it made me cry, it made me think.” Liane Moriarty, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Big Little Lies
This is how a family keeps a secret…and how that secret ends up keeping them.
This is how a family lives happily ever after…until happily ever after becomes complicated.
This is how children change…and then change the world.
This is Claude. He’s five years old, the youngest of five brothers, and loves peanut butter sandwiches. He also loves wearing a dress, and dreams of being a princess.
When he grows up, Claude says, he wants to be a girl.
Rosie and Penn want Claude to be whoever Claude wants to be. They’re just not sure they’re ready to share that with the world. Soon the entire family is keeping Claude’s secret. Until one day it explodes.
Laurie Frankel's This Is How It Always Is is a novel about revelations, transformations, fairy tales, and family. And it’s about the ways this is how it always is: Change is always hard and miraculous and hard again, parenting is always a leap into the unknown with crossed fingers and full hearts, children grow but not always according to plan. And families with secrets don’t get to keep them forever.
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About the Author
Laurie Frankel is the author of the novels This Is How It Always Is, The Atlas of Love, and Goodbye for Now. She lives in Seattle with her family.
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This Is How It Always Is
By Laurie Frankel
Flatiron BooksCopyright © 2017 Laurie Frankel
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Once Upon a Time, Claude Was Born
But first, Roo was born. Roosevelt Walsh-Adams. They had decided to hyphenate because — and in spite — of all the usual reasons but mostly so their firstborn could have his grandfather's name without sounding too presidential, which seemed to his parents like a lot of pressure for a six-pound, two-ounce, brand-new tiny human. First Roo was born, all pink and sticky and loud and miraculous. Then Ben was born. Then they debated and deliberated and decided just one more and therefore got twins — Rigel and Orion — who were no doubt going to voice hostility about their names when they became older than four, especially when Rigel found out he was named after the constellation's toe, but who for the moment were too little and too loud to care. The leap from two to four felt astronomical, so their parents had turned to the heavens.
All of which was why, despite being a woman of considerable science, a disciple of logic and reason, a person grounded firmly in the right half of her right mind, and besides all that a doctor who knew better, Rosie Walsh was spending the fifteen minutes immediately preceding the kickoff of Claude dragging her bed from its spot on the wall into the middle of the room so that it faced east-west rather than north-south. The Talmud, her mother reported, was very clear that many sons were born to a man whose bed was facing north, and though Rosie doubted it sincerely, along with most of what the Talmud offered, she couldn't take the chance. She'd also quietly served salmon to her husband for lunch and, though of course they were adults, chocolate-chip cookies, German folklore prescribing red meat and salty snacks for men in need of heirs and afternoon delight for those desirous of daughters. The same website also suggested putting a wooden spoon under the bed to conceive a girl, and she did, then felt like an idiot and threw it on the dresser then thought Penn would mock her — and rightly — if he saw it there so stashed it the only place close at hand: under the bed. Couldn't hurt.
The sources, dubious and dubiouser, also recommended missionary position, and she was happy to oblige. Missionary position was, as far as she could tell, like vanilla ice cream: purported to be boring and chosen only by passionless, unimaginative, exhausted people but really the best one. She liked to look at Penn's face so close that it split into pieces like a modernist painting. She liked the length of his front pressed against the length of hers. She felt that people who needed to do it upside down and backward from behind — or who added candied bacon or smoked sea salt or pieces of raw cookies to their ice cream — were probably compensating for a product that was inferior to begin with.
The dubious sources also recommended that the woman refrain from orgasm. But you could only take these things so far.
Once upon a time, Dr. Rosalind Walsh and her husband had had sex that started spontaneously and uncontrollably, sex that demanded itself, sex they had for any number of reasons but also because they really had no choice. Now, with four sons and two jobs, the sex was better but less inevitable. More evitable? Proceeded, in any case, by light planning and a conversation rather than the tearing off of clothing and slamming into walls. Rosie was working the night shift at the hospital that week. Penn worked from home. They ate lunch, and then he did some research for his book while she worked out, and then she got a spoon, pulled the bed into the center of the room, and took off all her clothes.
Penn sat on the edge of the bed, still wearing his reading glasses, still holding a highlighter in one hand and an article on World War II food shortages in the other. "The last thing I want to do is dissuade you from what's about to go down." He put away his article, took off his glasses and then his clothes, and climbed in next to her. "But you realize this is how we got into this mess in the first place."
"Trying for a girl?" It was true. A surely-this-time girl was how they'd talked themselves into more after Ben.
"Getting naked in the middle of the day," said Penn.
"What mess?" She smiled.
"Have you seen the rec room this week?"
"I never go in the rec room."
"Mess would be a generous term. Mess conveys the level of disaster but not the degree of danger. If the rec room were an airport, its security level would be red."
"Always," she said, kissing his mouth and then his neck and then his mouth some more.
"Always," he agreed, from around her tongue.
A short time later, but not too short, Claude happened, in the way these things do, though none of the three of them knew it at the time. It always struck Rosie that it would be a useful human evolution if the female could feel the sperm enter the egg. That way she could stop drinking and eating sushi and the good kind of cheese a whole month or more before she generally actually got around to doing so. Such an important part of life, conception, and you missed it altogether. Also once upon a time, sex was followed by napping in a heap together, tangled legs still tingling, or by deep, meaningful philosophizing late into the night, or sometimes by more sex. Now Penn fetched back his food shortages article and gave himself seven minutes to read it nakedly against the headboard before going down to start dinner for thirty-five minutes before driving to preschool to fetch Rigel and Orion. Rosie got dressed and then ready for work and then went to the bus stop to meet Roo and Ben. All the while, Claude worked quietly at becoming, first arriving together and then, in the days and weeks and months to come, dividing and dividing and dividing.
* * *
What people always said to Rosie was, "What are you, Catholic?" though without raising their voices at the end like you do when you're really asking a question. Or they said, pretending to be joking, "You know there are ways to prevent this sort of thing." Or they said, "Better you than me," which they needn't, since this was obviously true, or they said, "Are they all yours?" They all were. A mom at a PTA meeting the year before had taken Rosie aside to advise her not to tack condoms to a bulletin board next to the bed, no matter how convenient a storage solution that seemed, a lesson she confessed, nodding at a first-grader in the corner licking paste off his fingers, she had learned the hard way. Making a family seemed just as intimate to Rosie as the usual kickoff to that process and just as impolite to discuss — never mind openly judge — in polite conversation with acquaintances. But that's what happened to her, usually several times a week. And that's what was happening at the bus stop while she waited for Roo and Ben and one half of almost-Claude raced frantically for the other half.
"I don't know how you do it." Heather. Her neighbor. This was another thing people always said, criticism disguised as compliment.
Rosie laughed. Fake laughed. "Well. You know."
"No, I mean seriously." But she did not mean seriously. "I mean, I guess Penn doesn't have a job. But you do."
"Penn works from home," Rosie said. Again. This was not their first time through this particular conversation. They had it every time the bus was late. Which was every time it snowed. Which was every day some months. She thought Madison Wisconsin's Public Schools should specially train their bus drivers for snowy conditions — was this not just common sense? — but apparently she was all alone with this idea. Now it was September and hot and smelled like a late-afternoon thunderstorm, so who knew why the bus was late.
"I mean, I know he works." Heather started almost every sentence with "I mean," which Rosie felt was implied. "But it's not a job."
"Writing's a job." Penn's work in progress — he called it DN for Damn Novel — was not yet feeding them, but he wrote diligently, every day. "It's just not a nine-to-five sort of job."
"Does that really count?"
"My job isn't nine to five." She looked at her watch. In fact, she had to be at the hospital in just more than an hour. Night shifts were brutal but easier to schedule around. Sometimes, it was just less painful to forgo sleep than to try to find child care for all the early dismissals and vacations and holidays and staff developments and parent-teacher conference days. It was also true that nights in the ER were often more peaceful than nights at home with her family. Sometimes they even involved less blood.
"Yeah, but I mean, you're a doctor," Heather was saying.
"So doctor's a real job."
"So is writer."
"I don't know how you do it," Heather said again, shaking her head. And then added, giggling, "Or why."
In fact, how was an easier question than why. How was the same answer as it is for all impossible things you do anyway. One day at a time. One foot in front of the other. All for one and one for all. Anyway, some cliché with the word "one" in it, ironic since it had been so long since she was just a one. She herded the boys — some of the boys — toward the car. If she was going to have to have this conversation with Heather at the bus stop every day, she might just start picking the kids up from school. Driving to and from the bus stop seemed absurd to her. Wasn't the point of the bus to bring kids from their home to the school? She loved their sprawling old farmhouse, their fifteen acres of rangy, overgrown land, going ceaselessly to seed. There was a barn that was only the memory of a barn, a stream that was mysterious and wet enough to be fun, but not deep or fast enough to worry about. The house was designed for a family of farmers, a family with lots of children who rose before dawn to help milk cows or slop livestock or whatever it was farm children did. Rosie and Penn had nothing to milk nor any animals beyond the puppy (Jupiter, a present for the twins' fourth birthday), but they did, more frequently than not, have children up before dawn. Those children needed lots of bedrooms, and the farmhouse had plenty, plus a perfect nursery off the master which smelled perpetually of talcum powder and was painted yellow, just in case the baby was a girl one of these days. The floors were not even. The walls were not soundproof. The water took a long time to be hot. But Rosie loved the rough-and-tumbleness of the house, which matched the rough-and-tumbleness of her family. Among other things, when the molding got nicked — and it did — no one cared. Some days though, plain old suburbia and a cul-de-sac at the top of which a bus stopped seemed easier. Some days, she just didn't have the energy. This day she felt tired. She didn't know why. But she needed to shake it off anyway. Her workday had not yet begun.
At home, she proceeded with the business of one foot, one day, one for all. Penn kissed the boys hello, kissed her goodbye, went off to fetch Rigel and Orion. She took over dinner prep — sautéing the vegetables Penn had chopped, seasoning the rice Penn had boiled, grilling the shrimp Penn had marinated. (She did not yet know that the racing-together Claude halves precluded any chance that avoiding red meat would beget a girl.) While the beans simmered, she emptied lunch boxes, checked folders, sorted forms. While the sauce reduced, she finished washing dishes from the night before. While she dried them, she interrupted the roller-skating contest Roo and Ben were holding in the living room three times. (It wasn't that she finally succeeded in getting them to stop. It was that she finally succeeded in not caring anymore.)
Then Roo set the table. Then Ben poured water into water glasses. Then Penn, Rigel, and Orion came back in, all three of them wet and emotional, Penn from the traffic, which he reported was a mess because of the thunderstorm, Rigel and Orion from something having to do with a sand table that Rosie couldn't make out but made sympathetic noises toward anyway. If traffic was bad, she needed to leave early for work. If she needed to leave early for work, she needed to leave now. Penn pulled the shrimp from the grill and the rice from the pot, threw both in with the vegetables in the wok, combined sauce and beans, and dumped some of all of the above into a giant to-go container, added a spoon, and shoved it into Rosie's hands as she checked to see how many of the many things she absolutely must not forget had actually made it into her bag. Some. She gave quick kisses all around and headed for the car. If traffic was as bad as Penn said, she'd be able to eat dinner on the way to the hospital.
That was how. One day at a time. One foot in front of the other. All for one. It wasn't so much that she and Penn had set out to practice Zen marriage equality and perfect-balance parenting. It was just that there was way more to do than two could manage, but by their both filling every spare moment, some of what needed to got done.
One good turn deserves another. Two heads are better than one.
Why was a harder question. Rosie thought about it all the way to the hospital, not that day, but 257 days later on the one when Claude was born. Labor had begun in earnest during dinner, though she'd known it was coming all morning and afternoon. Her feet itched peculiarly just before contractions started. She knew that sensation from long experience and had figured the baby would come the next day or even the one after that, so even though the contractions came closer and harder, she made dinner. But between passing the salad around and actually finishing the pasta, contractions had gone from every seven minutes to every three. Penn said, "So, how about dessert?" Rosie said, "Instead, maybe the hospital."
How they were going to get home was an open question, but for the moment, they all still fit in one car. Rosie installed herself in the front seat, calmly but with no little effort. Penn grabbed the bags. They weren't for Rosie, who needed so little. She had never been the type to prepare a soundtrack or a collage or a special pillow for the delivery room, but by now she realized that even the handful of things she'd brought the first few times were unnecessary. No, the bags were for her mother. They contained provisions to spend hours and perhaps days on end in a waiting room with four small, giddy boys — books, trains, LEGOs, glue sticks, juice boxes, granola bars, stuffies, blankies, and particular pillows. Rosie did not need a special pillow for the hospital. This was the difference between her and her sons.
One boy's trash is another boy's treasure. Back to square one.
All the way to the hospital while the kids sang Peter Pan in their car seats and boosters — their babysitter was starring in her high school musical — and Penn squeezed her hand and pretended, unsuccessfully, to be nonchalant by obeying all posted speed limits, and she resisted the temptation to tell him to hurry the hell up, Rosie was thinking one word over and over: Poppy. If the baby was a girl — and surely, surely it had to be: she had eaten fish and cookies; she had had sex in the afternoon facing east; she had done the thing with the spoon, and besides, it was her turn — she would name her Poppy.
They had had the name picked out from the first pregnancy. Rosie had had it for even longer, since one dark day sitting on her little sister's hospital bed while their parents were in the cafeteria taking a break. Rosie was braiding Poppy's wig hair and Poppy was braiding Poppy's doll's hair when she said, out of nowhere, "I'll never have a little girl whose hair I get to braid." Her voice was raspy. Rosie knew now it was from the chemotherapy, but at the time it seemed like something inside her little sister was fighting to get out — and winning — a goblin or a witch or a demon, something that was already breaking through in snatches here and there: a croaking voice, red rolling eyes, bruises that raised slowly then seemed to spread and multiply as if peeling back from a sea of purple skin roiling just beneath her ever more delicate surface. Rather than being frightened, Rosie found this idea comforting. She welcomed the demon on its way out of her sister because it was becoming increasingly clear that Poppy could not survive this terrible, unspeakable, unthinkable disease, but maybe the demon could. Demon Poppy seemed much stronger. Demon Poppy had more fight in her.
"Will you take care of Clover for me?" Poppy croaked. Like all the children in the Walsh home, Poppy's doll was named for a flower.
Rosie nodded. It was all she could manage. But then Poppy's regular voice came back: "Where should we go on vacation?"
"When I get out of here."
"I dunno." The only place they'd ever been on vacation so far was their grandparents' house, which smelled like basement. "Where do you want to go?"
"Siam," Poppy said immediately.
"Like The King and I." The hospital had a poorly stocked video library of which that was the highlight. And Poppy had a lot of lying-around time.
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Table of Contents
Once Upon a Time, Claude Was Born,
Things They Told Doctors,
Air Currents and Other Winds,
Rival Neighbor Princess,
Red Roo Rising,
Parenting in the Dark,
I'm Nobody! Who Are You?,
The Color of Monday,
Also by Laurie Frankel,
About the Author,
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
This book should be shared in our school's, in our book clubs, in our political circles, in our religion institutions, though out society. This is a beautiful story of adjusting to a world that although we cannot understand why, we need to learn to accept as reality. Definitely a timely story.
It was the writing that hooked me, then the story owned me. What beautifully complex beings we are - we humans! I loved everything about this book...could not put it down.
I guess we need to go to Amazon to read reviews that are real. I feel that nothing is ever done when a review is flagged or reported. Used to rely on the reviews here. I go elsewhere. I gave a 5 star for this book because it sounds good. I'll check Amazon to see what readers are saying and go from there. Glad someone else noticed this happening.
I loved "This is How It Always Is"! Any parent will be interested in the story of how a family raises a transgender child. It's funny, sad, touching, interesting and heartbreaking, all at the same time. It was a quick read, and because it is so beautifully written, I didn't want the story to end!
Rosie and Penn are raising five boys in cold and snowy Madison, Wisconsin. They have an unconventional family. Rosie is an ER doctor, Penn stays home with their children while working on his Damn Novel and creating the most elaborate bedtime stories for the boys. Ben, Roo (short for Roosevelt), twins Rigel & Orion (named after the stars) and five-year old, baby of the family Claude are growing up on a large sprawling farm while always being encouraged to be exactly who they are at all times - Rigel knits, Roo swears like a trucker, Ben is a young genius and Orion lives his life in character costumes. Claude begins to slowly introduce his own personality into the mix when he first declares at age three that he wants to be a girl when he grows up. Next came the request to wear dresses and barrettes to pre-school. Eventually Claude disappeared completely and only Poppy existed. Without them really meaning to, they all end up living day to day teetering on cliff's edge of exposing Claude's secret. "This Is How It Always Is" is an eye-opening story inspired by author Laurie Frankel's experiences with her own family. While reading I had to keep reminding myself this was a work of fiction. The characters Frankel has created are filled with so much substance and life it's easy to forget that they have been written into existence. Obviously Poppy's experiences are fictional, not everyone with a story similar to her's has parents like Rosie & Penn or siblings as caring but the book's attempt to open up the reader's perspective and begin conversations about living a life openly and supported by your community is what makes this novel a must read.
I loved this amazing story and it's wonderful characters. I wish there were more inspiring funny educated loving people in the real world.
I couldn’t put this book down! I love the characters and the evolving story.
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I appreciate the learning experience this book provided. It invites you in to the hearts and minds of the characters which helps me have a clearer understanding of being transgender. Thus, having more compassion.
I really loved this book. Very refreshing read.
i gave this book 5 star rating it was that good and i couldn't stop reading it and i also was listening to this on audible and that was good to listen to as and reese witherspoon really pick a good book for her book club for this month and when i was reading the book in one of the chapters i was saw one of my favorite jersey boys and i am from new jersey and it was bruce springsteen the boss
Accepting Differences Rosie and Penn have 5 sons. When their youngest, Claude, is very young he decides he would be happier being a girl rather than a boy. His parents and brothers are accepting of his choice, but advise (because of his young age) that some things are best kept secret. How long can a secret stay a secret? And what about when Claude reaches adolescence? A wonderful story about a family supporting each other, coping with changes and making mistakes along the way. At times I wondered if such a wonderful family could really exist, but it was part of the enjoyment of the book that downtimes were acknowledged but the positive, and gentle, theme of the book was at all times maintained. I listened to the audio version and the narrator was great; she read the different voices well and was very clear. 5*s from me for a number of reasons. The main theme of how to support a child in Claude's position was very thought provoking, and the main characters really came alive as the story progressed. As an audio book it was easy to put down and pick up, without losing the thread. I've been talking about this uplifting book with so many people, which for me is a sign of a really good book! Suitable for all ages.
This Is How It Always Is is a character-driven story about a family who’s youngest son starts identifying as a girl around age 5. I found the topic and emotions to be fascinating, but the details about every member of the family were too much for me. I like to get to know characters when reading a book, but I am always more interested in plot than character development. It felt necessary to examine both parents in this story, but it was sometimes too much, especially in regards to the mother’s career. I loved learning about Claude and his transformation into Poppy. I adored the father, Penn, and his story-telling with all of the kids. Rosie, the mom, kind of drove me crazy. It’s hard to know how I would handle their situation, but I couldn’t deal with the way she was handling it. This book would be a PERFECT book club book, and I was really wishing I’d read it with other people, so I could talk about it. There is a lot of thought provoking content. It would make for great discussion! I enjoyed listening to this book, but as much as I loved the content, I just couldn’t rate it more than 3 stars. It just dragged on too long, with too many extraneous details. http://opinionatedbooklover.com/review-this-is-how-it-always-is-by-laurie-frankel/
This was such a gripping, emotional, heartfelt book. Great storyline and authentic characters.
WOW!! Kudos to Laurie Frankel, author or "This is How it Always Is". The genre of this book is Fiction, but in the author's notes she courageously writes that the motivation comes from her living with a family member with the same issues. Rosie and Penn have five children. Rosie is a Physician and Penn is a writer, and tells the children made up fairy tales. The baby of the family Claude is different. Claude loves to wear dresses, play with dolls, wears jewelry, Barrettes in his hair,and approaches life differently than his brothers.Claude is happiest when can do this.Rosie and Penn want to see their children happy. Claude draws himself with long hair and dresses.At first his parents feel that all children go through phases. This is a controversial topic that is spoken about currently, but I feel that many of these issues just have always existed but never were addressed as openly. Children(and adults) can be devastatingly cruel, be bullies, and do not accept whatever the "norm" should be. It is not often that we speak of transgender children, sometimes as young as three. Laurie Frankel gives me much to think about. Should answers be black and white, yes or no? Does a person have to make up their mind if they feel they are a girl/boy? Is it so simple? Should society force families to keep a "secret" if their feelings don't conform to what is supposedly expected? I love the way that Laurie Frankel writes about family, love, support and acceptance I also feel that the hardest job in life is to be a parent. Of course, we want to see our children happy, but can we admit that we have certain expectations that might be or not be in our children's best interest? I highly recommend this intriguing novel. It is so very different and unique, and Laurie Frankel's descriptions are amazing!