Sadie Robertson, bestselling author and star of Dancing with the Stars, has an important message for her generation: you don’t have to be held back by fear, anxiety, or loneliness anymore. In Live Fearless, Sadie takes you on a thrilling personal journey toward power, passion, and purpose as you live at the center of who God created you to be!
I don’t know about you, but I’m pretty tired of the struggle. You know which one I mean—fear, loneliness, not knowing who I am or what I’m meant to do. . . . Sound familiar?
I struggled with insecurity, comparison, and isolation for too many years, from thigh gaps to eyebrows to the lifestyles I felt I had to live up to. I was so afraid of being “found out,” that everyone in my life would somehow figure out that I was fearful and small and that I struggled to make my faith a reality and to be secure in who I am. It took a major perspective shift from staring at comments on a screen to really digging into the pages of my Bible to see what God actually says about overcoming fear.
Setting aside the fear, anxiety, and comparison to become the joy-filled person God created you to be is exactly what God is inviting you into. To really be seen and known. To be an agent of change by choosing compassion, connection, and acceptance for everyone you come in contact with. Inside this book are ways to find your power, passion, and purpose—and reach for your dreams. Plus, there are places to jot down notes, fun lists, practical ways to make changes, and thoughts on how living fearless can change everything.
Are you tired of the awful comparison game? Are you exhausted from trying to keep up, from feeling small and afraid that people will find the real you and be disappointed? There is so much more for you. No matter who you are, where you come from, or what your fears are, freedom is available to you. It’s just a matter of saying yes. You in?
Hope you’ll join me on this wild adventure as we learn to Live Fearless together.
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About the Author
Positive. Happy. Enthusiastic. Bold. Real. Full of life.
These are just some of the words that describe television and media personality Sadie Robertson. Known for her commitment to Christ and love for people, Sadie is on a mission to reach her generation with a message of confidence in God, loving Jesus, caring for others, and making the most of the life they’ve been given.
In 2016, Sadie launched her Live Original Tour, a series of evenings characterized by fun, friendship, freedom, encouragement, and passionate worship, as well as a powerful message of hope from Sadie. In 2017, the tour traveled to 16 cities, with 14 sold-out dates, and reached an estimated 20,000 people.
Sadie’s entrepreneurial spirit and flair for fashion has led her to develop a line of prom dresses with designer Sherri Hill and new clothing for her Live Original brand.
Sadie is committed to making the world a better place and lives this commitment in various ways, including partnerships with World Vision, the World Food Program, and Help One Now and her relationship with Roma Boots, whose mission is to “Give poverty the boot!” Amid her busy life, she makes philanthropy a priority and takes time to personally minister to children and orphans around the world. She has been privileged to work in various nations, including the Dominican Republic, Somalia, Peru, Haiti, Uganda, Guatemala, and more to help inspire and create long-lasting, sustainable change.
Sadie also hosts the popular podcast WHOA That’s Good, which reached more than a million unique downloads after only 15 episodes. Her blog on LiveOriginal.com features encouraging, transparent, vulnerable messages from Sadie and her closest friends and is designed to inspire people to seek God wholeheartedly; live in love, joy, and peace; and make a difference in the world. To date, the blog has reached more than 2 million people in 195 countries.
Sadie is the New York Times bestselling author of Live Original. Her newest book, Live Fearless, released in February 2018.
Louie Giglio is pastor of Passion City Church and founder of the Passion Movement, which exists to call a generation to leverage their lives for the fame of Jesus.
Since 1997, Passion has gathered collegiate-aged young people at events across the US and around the world, uniting millions of students in worship, prayer, and justice.
In addition to the collegiate gatherings of Passion Conferences, Louie and his wife, Shelley, lead the teams at Passion City Church, sixstepsrecords, and the Passion Global Institute.
Louie is the author of The Comeback, The Air I Breathe, I Am Not But I Know I Am, Goliath Must Fall, and Indescribable.
Louie and Shelley make their home in Atlanta, Georgia.
Beth Clark is a writer and publishing consultant who has collaborated on multiple award-winning books and New York Times bestsellers. She is based in Franklin, TN.
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IT'S NOT THAT THINGS AREN'T SCARY ...
Each of us must confront our own fears, must come face to face with them. How we handle our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives.
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A few years ago, the idea that I would write a book on living fearless would have been unthinkable. I could have written a series of encyclopedias about how to live in fear, but I could not have come up with even one sentence about being fearless. I did not know how to live without fear controlling my life — directing my thoughts, influencing my decisions, answering my questions, preventing me from having fun, and keeping my emotions in a continual state of unrest. It caused me to say no to opportunities that could have shaped and changed my life — opportunities I now wish I'd said yes to.
Had anyone asked me, "Who is the most fearful person you know?" I could have answered without thinking about it for even one second. I was the most fearful person I knew!
I once met a girl in the audience of one of my speaking events who made the most interesting comment about fear. She said she felt like it was a disease she could never get rid of. For a long time, I felt the same way.
I went through a season in my late teens when the fear became extreme, and that's when I realized things had to change. But I have to admit that for most of my life, I cannot remember not being afraid of something. Just like my long brown hair, my hands, or my feet are with me all the time and I cannot get rid of them, fear was always with me too. The thought of being free from fear was as far-fetched to me as being free from an eye or an ear. It was that much a part of who I was. After all, I reasoned, there were a lot of scary things in the world. Why wouldn't I be afraid?
Sometimes I look back and ask myself, "Why were you so scared of everything all those years?" (I can answer that now: because I kept feeding my fear instead of starving it.) God has done a complete work in my life, and I know He wants to do the same for you.
OVERCOMING FEAR MEANS SURRENDERING CONTROL
Let me take you back to a few experiences that will show you what a fearful person I used to be. As a child and young teenager (and, okay, even older than that), I was terrified of storms. I'm not sure why, but thunder, lightning, high winds, tornado warnings — all those things made me shake inside. Looking back now, the fear seems totally unreasonable, and I'm not sure where it came from.
Maybe I was afraid of tornadoes because, unlike other girls my age who watched Nickelodeon or the Disney Channel, for some reason, I watched the Weather Channel — a lot. I was remarkably educated about floods, droughts, hurricanes, and blizzards. I knew about people being rescued from their rooftops and losing power for days. I'm aware that most children aren't fascinated by weather events, but I was unusually interested in what can happen in the natural world and how powerful it can be. I just wasn't interested enough to want to live through a tornado. But I did — kind of, or at least from a distance.
I once saw a tornado from my seat in the car while my family drove from our home in Louisiana to a Texas Rangers baseball game. The sheer force of it captured my attention and terrified me. I can still see the image of the funnel cloud in my mind. But I can also see a mental picture of my cousin, Reed, undoubtedly the toughest and least fearful of the Robertson grandchildren, freaking out over the tornado. This guy, who was never afraid of anything and always rushing into things that seemed dangerous, started screaming as loud as he could and even threw his phone to the back of the car!
That episode with the tornado stands out as one of the most frightening events of my childhood because it felt so threatening to me, and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it. It was completely out of my control! I didn't know then that navigating situations we have no control over is a necessary step toward breaking free from fear. That's one thing about God; He's the one in control, not you or me.
The tornado incident drove home for me the whole idea that I am not in control of anything. It was so much bigger, so much more forceful, so much more frightening than any experience I had ever had. After watching it with my family that day, I didn't want to travel anywhere unless I knew what kinds of scary things could happen.
Seriously, before I went on a trip, I researched the most common natural disasters in the state where I was going. It didn't take long for me to learn what was likely to happen in almost every state in America. Want to know where tornadoes strike most often? Just ask me. Interested in the states where wildfires happen most? I can tell you that. Want to know the places most vulnerable to floods or earthquakes? I still remember them. Oh, and as a bonus, if you'd like to know the details of hurricane season, I could probably help you with those too.
Being afraid of tornadoes and natural disasters isn't terribly uncommon, but I took those fears to extremes. You see, it's one thing to be aware of your circumstances. It's another thing to let them consume and control you — and that's what fear does. Plenty of people are scared of big catastrophes, but it isn't always the big, dramatic events (like watching a tornado from the car window) that make us most afraid. We can be just as fearful of ordinary, everyday situations.
Maybe you've heard that a lot of people struggle with the fear of public speaking. That's been true for me. You may have heard me speak in a large arena or on YouTube, where the whole world can watch and think, No way! She didn't seem nervous at all! (If you have, thanks for being there!) Let me just say this: I was the person in elementary school who started sweating and breathing fast if the teacher called on me to read aloud in class. I had to learn to face my fears every time I stepped on a stage or in front of a camera.
Though I truly believe I am living fearlessly, I'll confess that sometimes I still get a little nervous when I speak in front of lots of people, but it's excited-nervous instead of scared-nervous. I used to allow nervousness to keep me from wanting to speak. Now I can hardly wait to get in front of the audience, and I just say, "Go away, fear. I'm not listening to you. I've got a job to do! I mean it. Go away! Not today! Good-bye! In the name of Jesus!"
The key ingredient to overcoming fear is not just speaking to it; it's speaking to it in Jesus' name. When I tell fear to go away and leave me alone in the name of Jesus, I say it with lots of force and a little bit of sass. That short speech has become my anthem. I don't care if I sound a little silly saying it. It works!
If you will stand up to fear, give it a little straight talk, and tell it to leave you alone in Jesus' name, that will get you a long way. But beyond that, it's also vital to trust God while you're still afraid. You see, often your peace is waiting for you on the other side of trust. I've had a lot of experiences where God met me once I stared down my fear, pushed through it, and did what I needed to do.
When we're afraid, we have a tendency to pray and ask God for peace before we'll step out and do what frightens us. But most of the time, we simply need to move forward. Once we break through the fear, God gives us the most amazing sense of peace — but usually not while we're still deciding whether to conquer it or not.
If you're waiting for a sense of peace to come so you can deal with your fear, you could be waiting a long time. If you will be brave and march straight into that fearful situation, having faith that God will bring you through it, that's probably where you'll find the peace you're looking for.
HERE'S A QUESTION: How many thoughts of fear consume your mind? On a scale of one to ten, with ten being off-the-charts high, how fearful would you say you are?
HERE'S A CHALLENGE: I challenge you to name your fears because the first step to moving beyond fear is to know specifically what you are afraid of. So go ahead — make a list of your fears on paper or in your phone.
HERE'S SOME ENCOURAGEMENT: Once you get to the other side of fear, once you've had that breakthrough you need, you'll look back on the things you were once afraid of and ask yourself, "Why was I so scared of that?" Yep, you'll have the ability to laugh at your fears. That's the kind of freedom I believe you can find in this book.
HERE'S HOW YOU CAN PRAY: Lord, help me identify what I'm afraid of, and show me how You are bigger and greater than that. Give me security and safety through the truth of your Word.
TAKE NOTE: The Bible has lots of scriptures that include words like "Fear not" or "Don't be afraid" or something similar (depending on which translation you're using). Here are a few of them. Write down some ways these Bible verses can help you gain victory over fear.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO DANCE!
I was hit with a big fear moment when I received the phone call letting me know that Dancing with the Stars wanted me to appear on the show. The timing could not have been crazier. In June 2014, I had attended a meeting about being a contestant. They said they would call me in two weeks to let me know if I had been chosen. Two weeks passed, and no one called, so I assumed I would not be part of the cast. Two months passed and August rolled around. They finally called one Friday, but only to say, "We aren't going to have you on the show. We already have a girl your age for this season."
I was sad and disappointed after waiting all summer for their decision, but I accepted it. Two days later, on a Sunday, they called back and said, "We want you after all, but you'll be a week behind everyone else, so we need you in Los Angeles tomorrow."
The fact that I was a week behind all the other contestants was not a surprise. I had already seen media reports about people chosen for that season of the show, such as Bethany Mota. Here's the thing about Bethany. She had something like five million Instagram followers when Dancing with the Stars chose her. When we went to New York for the announcement on Good Morning America, her picture was on the huge screen in Times Square. She's a big deal! Another contestant that season was Alfonso Ribeiro. He eventually became my "California Dad," but when I first heard I would be competing against him, I thought, No pressure, Sadie. He's only been on The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and danced in a commercial with Michael Jackson.
And then there was me, a teenager from West Monroe, Louisiana, who was not happy about missing basketball season. Maybe you understand why I felt out of place with such well-known, accomplished people. Before that, the biggest audience I had ever performed for was in my high school gym during basketball playoffs! Of course I was nervous about dancing on television in front of the whole world!
But still, I was so thankful to have been asked to be on the show. I was truly honored by the invitation. But the thought of leaving home the next day and being a week behind everyone else was overwhelming. So I said what a lot of people might say when they're overwhelmed: "This is such an amazing opportunity! Thank you so much for asking me. But I just don't think I can fly out tomorrow. This is an intense competition, and I don't want to start out a week behind the other competitors."
My response made perfect sense to me. After all, I didn't know anyone on the show; I had never met my partner; and three thoughts kept racing through my mind: (1) What would the Christian community in my small Southern town say? (2) I didn't even know how to dance (minor detail, right?), and (3) It was BASKETBALL SEASON! The more I thought about it, I felt rather awkward and not graceful at all. I could dominate a basketball court, but a dance floor? That was a different story.
Once I hung up the phone, I had a meltdown — and it was major. As soon as they asked me to participate, I decided not to do it because I was so afraid. Fear kicked in, and I could feel it physically.
"I don't even know how to dance!" I shrieked to my mom. I meant it. My school didn't offer a dance class or host a prom. I had never danced in my life! Generally speaking, dancing was not something a lot of people around me viewed favorably (I mean, you've seen Footloose, right?), so I was also nervous about what people would say or think about me. That's what the fear of man looks like.
Fear gripped me so tightly that I started bawling, saying, "I'm not going to do it! I can't do it! I know I said I wanted to be on the show, but I don't!" It was quite a crisis at the Robertson house!
My mom stayed up with me that entire night, until 4:00 the next morning. I talked. I cried. She listened. This was a lot for her to process too — the whole idea of sending her sixteen-year-old daughter to Hollywood, to be immersed in a world we knew nothing about. Had I been going on a duck hunt, everyone would have felt okay about it, but a dance competition? That was coloring outside the lines.
I want you to know something about my mom. All my life, she has been my go-to person. She is totally chill. About everything. The whole world could be on fire, and my mom would be the one saying, "It'll be okay. We can deal with this." And then she'd get busy doing her part to put out the fire. She's one of those people who doesn't have a fear chip in her wiring; she lives at peace. She takes Proverbs 31:25 seriously — and literally: she really does "laugh at the days to come," and she has no fear of the future.
It means so much to me that while fear was never an issue for my mom, and it was an issue for me, she never judged or criticized me. She realized that fear was a genuine struggle for me, and she took it seriously. But taking my fear seriously didn't mean my mom was willing to accept it. She never said, "Oh, it's okay that you're afraid" about anything. Instead, she handled it with grace and said things like, "I understand that you're afraid, but that's not truth." She continually prodded me toward truth and freedom from fear. I'll always appreciate that.
Still, the only time I have ever seen my mom wrestle with a tinge of fear was over my invitation to Dancing with the Stars.. After all, she'd heard stories about what happened to young people in the entertainment industry — stories about things she didn't want to happen to me. For the first time in my life, my mom and I wrestled fear at the same time.
She finally found freedom from fear when a good friend said to her, "Korie, don't be afraid. Sadie has the God of the universe living inside of her! The devil is the one that should be afraid." Amazing advice! She ended up at peace with my being on Dancing with the Stars before I did. Looking back now, I realize that seeing her win her battle over fear ultimately gave me strength to win mine too.
MY LITTLE SISTER'S BIG QUESTION
The night of the phone call, Mom and I both got a few hours of sleep. When I woke up, I was still as scared as I could be about Dancing with the Stars, and I still thought I would say no to them. Still, I knew the experience could be good for me, but I couldn't find a way to slide myself out of the grip of fear.
The first thing I did that day was to take my little sister, Bella, out to lunch. As I talked about all that had happened, she stopped me and looked me right in the eye. "Sadie, can I ask you a question?" she said in her eleven-year-old, matter-of-fact way. "Is this the fear talking, or is this you talking?"
My little sister had a great point: Who was talking? Was it the fear or was it me?
Bella could have simply said, "Sadie, this is not you talking. This is fear talking." But she made her point in the form of a question, knowing that having to wrestle with it would be good for me. Of course it was the fear talking. I didn't want to admit it, but what was I going to do? I got busted by an eleven-year-old!
HERE'S A QUESTION: Are you torn right now because you really want to do something, but you're afraid? Ask yourself the same question Bella asked me: "[Say your name here], is this fear talking, or is this you talking?"
HERE'S A CHALLENGE: I challenge you to say yes to whatever you are currently saying no to. Don't let fear make you say no when God is leading you to say yes.
HERE'S SOME ENCOURAGEMENT: Bella's question itself is encouragement. If you know fear is talking, go ahead and silence it. You be the one who does the talking!
HERE'S HOW YOU CAN PRAY: Lord, give me to strength to say yes when You want me to do something. Give me guidance to know what to do next in my life. I surrender my no to You and agree with what You want for me. If You're saying yes, I say yes too.
Excerpted from "Live Fearless"
Copyright © 2018 Sadie Robertson.
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Table of Contents
1 It's Not That Things Aren't Scary … 1
Work the World: Psalm 25:4-5
2 Who, Me? Fearless? 23
Word the Word: Isaiah 41:10
3 The Purpose of Plankton 43
Work the Word: 2 Kings 6:15-16
4 Jump Off the Crazy Train 63
Work the Word: 2 Samuel 22:2
5 Connect the Dots 87
Work the Word: James 2:25-26
6 Exhale Your Ugly 107
Work the Word: Psalm 119:11
7 A Champion or a Legend? 131
Work the Word: Psalm 104:1-4
8 Pick Your Partner 155
Work the Word: Ephesians 4:26
One More Thing: A Word That Changes Everything 171
Do Not Fear: Verses to Help You Live Fearless 183
About the Author 195
What People are Saying About This
'I can't think of a better role model for young girls than Sadie. The time I spent with Sadie and her family created some beautiful memories for me, and I am proud to call her family. Her positivity, generosity, and love for everyone around her is something rare these days. I hope one day my daughters look up to someone like Sadie. Congrats on the new book. Its message is something we all need right now.' -- Mark Ballas, Emmy-nominated performer and singer-songwriter
'Sadie Robertson is a calming and powerful voice in a world that tries to keep us fearful and quiet. This book is a beautiful representation of not only what Sadie believes but also how she lives. It will grow you and change you, and you will not be the same after reading it.' -- Annie F. Downs, bestselling author of 100 Days to Brave and Looking for Lovely
'Sadie and her story continue to inspire so many around the world, including me. Both young people and adults can learn to live fearlessly through this incredible new book!' -- Nastia Liukin, five-time Olympic medalist
'Sadie Robertson is the walking example of what it means to allow God's glorious light to shine through us. In Live Fearless, Sadie uses her testimony along with the Word as tools to walk confidently in His grace and peace! Sadie is EXACTLY the voice and warrior this generation needs!' -- Alexa Vega, actress and singer
'Sadie is once in a generation. We can think of no better person to write about living fearless than someone who has already lived with such courage, bravery, and inspiration. We know this book will change your life if you let it.' -- Jefferson and Alyssa Bethke, authors of Love That Lasts
'Live Fearless could not be coming out at a better time than right now. Fear is a paralyzing spirit that has such a stronghold in this generation. Sadie's honest and brave account of facing her own fears and overcoming them with courage and faith is inspiring and is a great testament that we can all overcome when we realize who lives inside of us. Sadie is a powerful young woman with a message of hope and transformation, and I'm so excited for you to read this message, get free of fear, and live according to how God made you to live.' -- Alex Seeley, lead pastor of The Belonging Co. Nashville and author of Tailor Made
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This book helped me through my times of fear and encouraged me to break out of my comfort zone! Thank you Sadie for this awesome read! May God strengthen you and continue to use you to bring Glory to his name! God bless, Mellody.L
Sadie Robertson is a class act. She may be young but she is an example of what a lady should be....especially a Christian young lady. The Robertson family became familiar and beloved to me when my little grandson asked me if we could watch Duck Dynasty. I asked if that was a cartoon. He told me that they were a bunch of people who talk funny and hunt ducks down in the swamp. How cute. I later laughingly told him that he was responsible for my addiction to Duck Dynasty. This book is perfect for young women who are searching for the answer to healing them from their anxiety. Having watched Sadie on Duck Dynasty and movies she appeared in, I never would have thought that she suffered from anxiety. I highly recommend this book to teens and women in their 20's. I am giving this book 5 stars. I received a digital version of this book from netgalley and Thomas Nelson in exchange for an honest review. I was not required to write an honest review and all opinions expressed are my own.
Sadie Robertson may only be 20 years old, but she is already much wiser beyond her years. Think of how many child actors have grown up to be lost in the drug and party scene of Hollywood. Too many to count. While much of her life was shown in front of the camera on Duck Dynasty, she has stayed true to herself, her faith and her family. She has provided a great example for the younger generation that you can be a Christian and be cool, that you can be yourself and not need a bottle of pills to be cool, that you can have both success and your faith - it's not an either/or situation. She has offered a refreshing alternative to what we currently see the younger generation has to look up to. Now let's talk about her book Live Fearless. I don't know a person out there, religious or not, who has not faced or dealt with fear. We all have it in our lives. It's the elephant in the room people don't like to admit to having. And don't let Sadie's age deceive you that she doesn't legitimately have something constructive to add to the conversation about how to live without fear. This book, beautifully and excellently written, is a guide to help you dig through the root of your fears and a process to help walk the reader through reflections and discussions to put you on the path of spiritual growth from your fears - to help you live fearless! This isn't just a 12-step process. Her book is filled with quotes, scripture, real life testimony and experiences and lots of encouraging words and prayer. You don't need to be a teenager or young adult to appreciate or learn from this book. I found this book really helpful for me. And you don't need to be a Christian for the narrative and activities to work in your life. This is a well thought out book, devotional and guide that I immensely enjoyed and see this book being one I pass on to many of my friends and family. My thanks to Sadie Robertson and Thomas Nelson Publishing for a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
Live Fearless by Sadie Robertson...where do I even start? This book swept me off my feet. I know it takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, and this book was full of vulnerability from Sadie about times she was afraid and how she overcame fear. I loved everything about this book! I was afraid it was going to be a nice concept without much practical application, but Sadie made it personal and relatable and it really hit close to home for me. I really appreciated her personal testimonies and revelations of what God spoke to her. Having followed Sadie for several years now, I did recognize many things in the book from previous messages she's said, but it was good to read them again and see how it all connected for her personally. Some of my favorite parts of the book included her messages about plankton, connect the dots, and the real verses true comparisons. Sadie got SO REAL in this book and I know that it will be freeing for so many people! At the end of each chapter, she had questions, challenges, Scriptures, prayers, and journalling opportunities to help make the concept presented in the chapters personalized and applicable to the reader. I highly recommend this to people of pretty much any age. I believe this book will really make an impact on those who are willing to answer some tough questions about themselves. Thank to Thomas Nelson and Net Galley for providing me with an electronic copy of this book to read and review. All opinions are my own and were not required to be positive. *Disclosure of Material Connection: I received one or more of the products or services mentioned above for free in the hope that I would mention/review it on my blog. I was not required to give a positive review, only my honest opinion - which I've done. All thoughts and opinions expressed are my own and I only recommend products or services I use personally and believe will be good for my readers. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission's 16 CFR, Part 255: "Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.*
In reading Live Fearless, I was reminded once again of the fact that we really don't get to see what's going on inside a person. Especially when we see them on "reality" TV or through social media. Robertson shares how she has battled some serious issues in her life as a result of fear. She's had to push through the fear and learn how to live fearlessly based on truth in scripture. Live Fearless is the perfect book for a teenager who might be struggling right now with fear. I wasn't the target audience. But there was still plenty for me to glean from the message Robertson shares within these pages. She writes a genuine message that shares her heart for others to find freedom like she has. Robertson may not have set out to be a role model for young girls. But she is filling in that role quite well. She's sharing the message God has given her. I received a copy of this book from NetGalley. This review is my own, honest opinion.