From Catriona McPherson, the Agatha-Award winning author of Quiet Neighbors, comes a clever, spine-tingling standalone Gothic thriller.
“Go to My Grave is both a classic ‘country house mystery’ and a thriller. Atmospheric, with mind-bending twists, a narrator who may or may not be reliable, and an ending that will take your breath away and leave you astonished.” —Louise Penny
Donna Weaver has put everything she has into restoring The Breakers, an old bed and breakfast on a remote stretch of beach in Galloway. Now it sits waiting—freshly painted, richly furnished, filled with flowers—for the first guests to arrive.
But Donna's guests, a contentious group of estranged cousins, soon realize that they’ve been here before, years ago. Decades have passed, but that night still haunts them: a sixteenth birthday party that started with peach schnapps and ended with a girl walking into the sea.
Each of them had made a vow of silence: “lock it in a box, stitch my lips, and go to my grave.”
But now someone has broken the pact. Amid the home-baked scones and lavish rooms, someone is playing games, locking boxes, stitching lips. And before the weekend is over, at least one of them will go to their grave.
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The house was a held breath. Its ten empty rooms waited, polished like a bowl of apples. There were flowers in the hall and in the big bay windows of the drawing room and dining room. There were logs in the baskets and candles in the holders. The snooker balls were framed and the magazines were fanned and every window was open an inch at the top, not enough to make the curtains tremble but enough to let in the sound of the sea.
The sea. You couldn't get away from it even if you wanted to. From every room you could hear it, thrashing up on the beach and rattling the pebbles as it drew back again. You could smell it under the lemon cleaner and beeswax polish, under the lilies and freesias and the eucalyptus. You could see it in a film on the west-facing windows, little dots of wet salt back again hours after washing them. And in the shiver of damp when the sun sank and the squabble of gulls when it rose again, there was the sea.
Of course I'd grown up on an island so I was used to it. Although we'd never lived right on the seafront on Skye, because those houses are worth more rented to tourists than sold to locals. Which was exactly the point: the hard cash value of the sound of the sea.
I walked up the stairs one last time, in and out of the five bedrooms. Pillows plumped, blankets smooth, tissues folded into fans. More flowers. In and out of the five bathrooms. Thick towels laid over warmed rails. Big bars of good soap unwrapped in every glittering dish. Not a drop of water or a speck of dust in the baths.
The house had seventeen rooms really, but the kitchen didn't count and the breakfast room attached to it was the 'staff lounge'. In other words, the dumping ground for supplies. The two smallest bedrooms didn't count either, because the nearest bathroom was down the back stairs, past the laundry facilities. We couldn't rent beds without en suites. Not at the prices we were charging. So they were 'staff accommodation' too.
And that was why the little room at the top of the stairs was called a snug in the brochure, even though it had a sofa-bed for overflow. Or – as my mum said – for flouncing off to after arguments.
I spent two late nights on Amazon choosing jigsaws and board games. My mum raised her eyebrows at the bill but she didn't argue. Hospitality was my end of this little venture, along with catering. I know my stuff and she trusts me.
I had to blink at the cost of the high-speed Wi-Fi, not to mention the fax and scanner and the extra-fast colour-printer down in the study, but I trusted her too. Holidays would be our bread and butter, she told me, but corporate retreats were the geese that shat the golden shit, second only to weddings. And Galloway's cheap property and dark night skies with the excellent star-gazing – we had provided binoculars and a telescope – went hand-in-hand with pitiful connectivity. 'But I can outwit all that,' she said. 'By the time I'm finished we'll have download speeds like a bank in Manhattan.'
She spent a lot longer than two late nights setting the search terms so that corporations, brides and holiday-makers would all find us, no matter what they thought they were looking for. She knows her stuff too. The website had been live less than a day when we got the first booking.
It was a tenth wedding anniversary. Eight old friends coming down from Glasgow, over from Edinburgh, up from England for a reunion. They bought the full-catered package: Friday tea till Monday breakfast, with a big dinner on the Saturday night. Which was why I was wearing black trousers and a starched white shirt with an apron on top as I padded round the rooms.
If only my mum had been there too I'd have been padding round without my knees knocking. As it was, I was doing this whole weekend – eight people, four meals a day, five counting drinks and nibbles – on my lonesome.
'It sucks hard and blows back out again,' my mum agreed, when the news broke, 'and if you say no, it's no. So ... what do you say?'
Because the thing is we had entered every competition going – as you would, starting up on a shoestring – and we had won one. The prize was free registration and a corner stand on the central aisle at Scotland's biggest wedding fair, at the SECC in Glasgow. We were still pinching ourselves.
'I'm more the business end anyway,' she'd said. True, but she can wash dishes and scrub toilets and she's great with names. It's always been my worst weakness, despite all the tricks and hacks in the book. It's the reason I prefer high-end, where you can 'sir' and 'madam' your way through everything.
'I promise I'll keep up with the bookings online in the quiet minutes,' she'd told me. 'But it's your call, Donna. Coal face and all that.'
'I can do it,' I announced. 'If we ditch the pan-seared scallops and soufflés, I can do it. But are you sure you can do the expo? You'll be more knackered than me.'
'We can both do it,' she said. 'We're unstoppable.'
A car door slammed, out on the gravel. I nipped to the side of the window and looked down. A navy-blue Range Rover had pulled up, slantwise, right across the front door, and a man was standing there with his head thrown back, staring so the house was reflected in his sunglasses.
He had to be one of the guests. He was dressed exactly like a townie dresses for a country weekend: brand-new cords, brand-new waxed jacket the same colour as his car, an inch of a checked collar showing above the neck of his cashmere. I edged in closer to the glass for a better look and, as I did, the passenger door opened and a girl stepped out. A woman. She matched him like the other side of the cuckoo clock: long legs in dark red jeans, tall boots, a sheepskin gilet over her angora. She was beaming and her hair bounced and shone as she skipped round the back of the car to stand beside the man. She took his arm and squeezed, then reached up onto her tiptoes and pecked his cheek.
It happened too fast for me to be sure. One minute she was kissing him, holding onto his arm, and the next she was sprawled on her arse. I'd have said she overbalanced, if he had stooped to help her up again. If she was still beaming. But he was back in the car and she scrambled to her feet, rubbing her hands on her red jeans. Heels of your hands on the gravel like that, they had to be stinging. The car was moving and she hopped and hobbled after it. She managed to get the door open and herself into the seat as he gunned the engine and squealed away.
I trotted down the stairs without touching the banister. It gleamed like an eel, with not a single fingermark along its length. Even though that had been a false alarm, I thought I should get the scones in the oven. The smell of baking when the guests arrive is a basic move. There's nothing complicated about a batch of cherry scones, but knowing they've been baked fresh just for you works wonders on the toughest guest.
And doing it calmed me too. I stepped outside afterwards, wiping my hands on my apron, and found – as I'd suspected – that the sunglasses man had left a scar on the gravel when he peeled away. I took the rake from where it was leaning half behind the ivy on the long front porch and started scraping the ruts flat again. There was the print of her skinny bum and the two small dents from her hands. I smoothed them away with two swipes of my rake. Then I stopped. I nudged at the little bit of granite until it turned back again, showing the speck of red. She had fallen hard enough to break the skin and bleed.
I picked it up – that one red chip in the sea of perfect silver-grey – and put it in my pocket, beside the petals I'd tidied from a table-top and the white thread I'd lifted from a black hand-towel. Then I raised my head at the sound of an engine round the bend of the drive. They were coming back, or someone was arriving.
I didn't have time to get out of sight unless I took the rake with me so I stashed it back among the ivy and waited on the step like a welcome party.
It was a different car. This one was a red hatchback, sitting low on its suspension. The driver tooted a tune – Tum-tiddly-aye-la! – as it got close and someone waved at me from the passenger seat. I wiggled my fingers in reply as the car slowed and stopped.
It was another couple. Or maybe not, I thought as they climbed out, since both of them had the same short legs and thick waists, the same brown eyes. His hair was clumsily cut into a divot and hers had highlighted spikes, but it was the same hair.
'Unbe-fucking-lievable!' said the man. He was standing staring up at the house like the Range Rover guy, knuckling his back and pushing his paunch out like a pregnancy.
'It's not,' said the woman. 'It can't be. Glancing similarity.' Then she smiled at me. 'You must be Kim.' She scurried forward, trying to get her bag, coat, phone and a bunch of flowers out of the way to shake my hand. 'It's so lovely to meet you at long last.'
'I'm Donna Weaver,' I said. 'Welcome to The Breakers. You're the first to arrive.'
'Donna?' said the man. 'What the hell happened to Kim?' His voice swooped with concern, but his eyes were twinkling.
'Shut up, Buck,' the woman said. 'Ow.' An earring had caught on her fluffy jumper and her head jerked to the side as she fiddled with it.
'Here,' I said, stepping forward. 'Let me. I'm Donna from Home From Home. I'm going to be looking after you for the weekend.'
'Oh, you're a sweetheart,' the woman said, working her neck round, now the earring was free again. 'I'm Peach Plummer.'
'Peach,' I repeated, staring hard at her. I was trying to get her name into my head. She misread me.
'God, don't I know!' she said. 'But my real name's Morag. And this is my brother, Buck.'
Peach, I told myself. Round and fuzzy. And sweary Buck. Rhymes with —
'Buchanan Leslie,' the man said, shaking my hand. 'The curse of my mother's maiden name. If you're trying to tick us off on your sheet, you should know that my wife's not coming. One of the ankle-biters has come down with tonsillitis and she drew the short straw.'
'Hmm,' said Peach. 'We'll measure the straws on Sunday, shall we?'
'Right then, Donna-from-Home-from-Home,' Buck said, after a moment's silence. 'When you say you're looking after us, are you unpacking the car and ironing our jimmy-jams or should we —'
'Shut up, Buck.'
'I'll show you to your rooms and then leave you to unpa —' I began, but he spoke over me.
'No need to show us anything, Donna. Every nook and cranny is seared into our brains, despite all the therapy.'
'We think we've been here before, you see,' Peach said. 'But it wasn't called The Breakers then.'
'That's right,' I told them. 'It had a name-change. It used to be ... Knockbreak House, I think.'
'That's right enough, then,' said Buck. 'God almighty.'
'Welcome back!' I spread my arms.
'I'd still love to see over it,' said Peach. 'It was a right old dump when we were kids. And look at it now.'
'But don't look at it with a black light,' Buck said. 'Just kidding,' he added. He even gave me a wink.
But I didn't miss the way he hesitated on the porch before he walked through into the vestibule. I was holding the inner glass door for him and, as he passed, I could see his arm where his sleeve was rucked up and the gooseflesh that bristled there.
* * *
I still enjoyed showing off the house. The corridor stretched its length, with the stairs at one end and the front door in the middle, so it would have been a bit much to cover everything. But we had a quick neb at the two rooms we passed. First, the library with its sage-green walls and carpet, dark green button-back wing-chairs, its long, pale, chesterfield couch; the bookcases were only MDF with beading tacked on, but we'd stained them and varnished them and I'd insisted on hardbacks. The black and yellow dining room was my favourite. All set for dinner, it took my breath away but even now the high polish on the bare table swelled me with pride. Home From Home had worked so hard and scrimped so much. I had been scared the plain black curtains with the patterns used for tiebacks and toppers would be too obviously thrifty but they weren't. They looked elegant and confident – the more so for a bit of restraint, maybe.
'Oops,' the Peach woman said, looking at a towering arrangement of allium and lilies in the dining-room window, then down at her cellophaned bunch of chrysanths. 'Maybe I could put these in my bedroom.'
'There are flowers in the bedrooms too,' I told her. 'But I'll find a jug and there'll be a perfect spot somewhere. They're lovely.'
'Oh, aren't you nice!' she said.
Buck was coming along the corridor with a couple of Tesco bags in each hand. 'Kitchen still in the same place, I'm guessing?'
'Oh!' I said. 'The food's all laid on, actually. Chef on duty all day every day.'
'Chef?' said Peach. 'Kim said we didn't need to, but I thought she was just being polite.'
'Shite,' said Buck. 'Don't tell me I dragged my arse round that supermarket for nothing!'
I took the bags from him and glanced into them. 'Good bread and English apples. These won't go to waste.'
'Oh, God, really? Aren't you nice!' Peach said. 'Will the chef get offended, though?'
'You're looking at her,' I said, nodding to my apron. 'And no. Come upstairs and I'll show you your bedrooms.'
The corridor stretched the length of the house up here too. The rooms off to the left had their doors ajar and the light poured through, dappling the long run of carpet. To the right, the door to the back rooms and back stair was closed and bolted on the other side.
'So I'm sharing with Jennifer, am I?' Peach said, when she saw the sign on the door. 'Fair enough.'
Buck whistled through his teeth, as we all trooped in. 'I have to say, this is pretty fantoosh.'
It really was. The couple who'd booked the weekend were getting one corner room and the other was reserved for a 'Paul and Rosalie' but this was the next best and it was charming. It was big enough for two Scotch doubles and the blue and white wallpaper was perfect with the cherry-wood suite – antiques from an auction in Glasgow. The curtains were white muslin and there was a white carpet that felt like velvet under your bare toes. It had the bathroom with the proper window too. Blue and white tiles and a roll-top bath.
'There's a lovely view,' I said. You could see the sea from all the front upstairs windows. Not the beach, because of the steep drop beyond the garden wall where a switchback path of leaf mould and tree roots led to the edge of the sand. But there was a clear sightline to the broad grey ribbon of sea filling the bay.
In a few years, our plan was to turn that treacherous path into a set of steps with a handrail so that The Breakers would be good for families as well as gatherings like this one. Until then, clients got warnings in their booking emails and there was a little plaque on the gate and a basket of torches on the hat- stand in the vestibule.
They'd walked over to the window as I gestured and now they were standing in silence, looking out. Three waves thrashed up and rattled back and still they stood there.
'The trees have grown,' Peach said at last. Buck put an arm out and hugged her.
'You're along at the end, Buck,' I said. 'Pretty much in the nursery, I'm afraid, but it's the only family room, and we thought you were bringing ...' They hadn't turned round as I spoke and talking at their backs like this was starting to feel weird. 'I'm afraid you don't have a sea view,' I added. 'But you'll still be able to hear the waves.'
They both turned then and whatever the expression they had on their faces – I couldn't name it – they looked more alike than ever as they stared at me.CHAPTER 2
The rooms on this side were dark, from how the hill rose up, ten feet across from the kitchen door, and how the trees crowded round, hugging the house. Yews, like in a churchyard.
'If there's a bed with no wife in it, and no kids in it, and no bloody dog in it, it'll do me,' Buck said, strenuously hearty, following me into the room with the four single beds in a row, like an old-fashioned dormitory. 'Jesus, though, that's a lot of tartan.'
'"Ooooh, Campbeltown Loch, I wish you were whisky",' Peach sang, doing a few Highland-dance steps. I kept the smile on my face without even trying. I've worked in hospitality since my first Saturday job when I was sixteen. And she had a point. Home From Home reckoned downstairs should have a 'cohesive country style' but the bedroom suites should give people a choice: one was pony-skin and silver, with those basins that look like mixing bowls left out on a counter-top; one was stone-coloured hessian, with photos of pebbles; the blue and white and cherry-wood was the pretty room; and this was over- the-top Scottish, with tartan throws, tartan tiebacks for the tweedy curtains, and a painting of stags and mountains.(Continues…)
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Great characters, as always... 10 little indians sideways!
Summary from Goodreads: "Donna Weaver has put everything into The Breakers, a Bed and Breakfast that she and her mother are opening on a remote stretch of beach. Now it waits - freshly painted, richly furnished, filled with flowers. But as the guests arrive, they feel like they've been here before. Amid home-baked scones, gorgeous guest rooms, and lavish dinners fit for a king, the feeling of menace grows. Someone has broken their vow. Someone is playing games. And then the games turn deadly... " My Thoughts: Go To My Grave was a dark and compelling thriller that left me wondering why I hadn't read anything by this author until now. One of the things that made me want to read this one right away was I saw a review somewhere that compared this book to the game of Clue. I loved that game as a kid so I was instantly intrigued. I can't say that I agree with the comparison but I still really enjoyed this book. This was one of those whodunnits that kept you guessing from the very beginning. And there was this sense of foreboding that was present throughout the book which I just adored for the most part. I'm not going to lie - there were times where I almost wanted to stop reading this book because of that feeling. Because you just knew that bad things were going to happen and I wasn't sure I could handle reading them. I feel like there are some serious trigger warnings here so readers be warned. This book is dark and not always easy to read because of it. (If you want specific trigger warnings just let me know). The book is told in two storylines: the present day and then what happened many years ago. The author beautifully ties these two storylines together and in such a way that I just did not see it coming. I found myself unable to stop reading as I just needed to see how it would all turn out. I'm going to admit that I was strongly satisfied with the ending as it just fit perfectly in my opinion. Overall, I enjoyed my time reading this book immensely which feels a bit wrong to say as it was so unexpectedly dark. I don't want to harp on that too much but I just feel like it is important for readers to be aware and understand what they are getting. I spent my entire time guessing with this book and was nowhere close! This was one of those books where the author brilliantly has you guessing and wondering just trying to figure it all out. I never knew what to expect and loved every minute of it! I'm so excited that I have many more books by this author to catch up on. Question though - are all of her books on the darker side or just this one? Not that it matters but I was just curious on what to expect. I would recommend this book to fans of mysteries and thrillers. Bottom line: A dark but very compelling read! Disclosure: I received a copy of this book thanks to NetGalley and the publisher. Thoughts are my own.
I keep a list of authors that I routinely check on just to see if the have new books coming out. Catriona McPherson is on that list. I've read several of her books with mixed emotions, as a few I've loved and a few I've only liked. This, unfortunately, was only liked. I loved the old manor house setting, which the main character has turned into a bed and breakfast with the help of her mother. It's very remote and bleak, which lends a Gothic feeling to the book. I've heard other reviewers likened it to Clue, and in a way it did have that feeling. However, there were far too many characters, most of which were unlikable. The main character was good, but often times her ineptitude grated on my nerves. The mystery was unique with lots of twists and turns, but the ending was quite unbelievable. Overall, it was a good atmospheric suspense novel that I liked reading but not enough to put it on my favorites list.
Atmospheric, menacing, and twisty! Go To My Grave is an ominous, character-driven thriller that delves into the complex dynamics between friends and family and highlights just how parasitic some of those relationships can truly be. The prose is gritty and taut. The characters are deceptive, plagued, and self-involved. And the plot using a back-and-forth, past/present style does a nice job of building tension as it unfolds a tortuous tale of friendship, lies, secrets, manipulation, jealousy, obsession, revenge, violence, and murder. There is no doubt that McPherson can weave a suspicious tale that’s dark, gloomy, and tragic and highlights the scheming, selfish, dark side of human nature. And even though I thought the storyline itself was quite clever, unfortunately for me the lack of characters with any sort of moral or ethical conscience in Go To My Grave made it a little hard to like, connect, or even want to root for any of them.
When her B&B is rented for a weekend Donna is very excited. She’s worked so hard to get the old place in shape. Now its ready for the first guests. The guests who arrive are related by marriage or blood and don’t seem overly fond of each other or the guests of honor – a sibling and his wife celebrating a special anniversary. As soon as the house is full odd things begin to happen. The reactions of everyone involved could be deemed telling – to someone who knows what’s going on. At times I was reminded of an Agatha Christie mystery. There’s the beautiful Inn, loosely related guests, and things that disappear or appear at unexpected times. But then something big happens and the smaller incidents don’t seem that minor anymore. I found the reveal interesting but, honestly, I almost gave up on this book a couple of times. Most of the characters were self-involved boors who acted horribly at one time or another, if not most of the time. The novel is mostly set in the present time but occasionally moves to the early 90s – one night in particular when unspeakable things happened. This group thought they’d go to their graves with the secrets from that night. But will they? For me it was an okay read but fans of this style of mystery might have a different opinion.