Book 2 of the After series—newly revised and expanded, Anna Todd's After fanfiction racked up one billion reads online and captivated readers across the globe. Experience the internet's most talked-about book for yourself from the writer Cosmopolitan called “the biggest literary phenomenon of her generation.”
Tessa has everything to lose. Hardin has nothing to lose...except her. AFTER WE COLLIDED...Life will never be the same. #HESSA
After a tumultuous beginning to their relationship, Tessa and Hardin were on the path to making things work. Tessa knew Hardin could be cruel, but when a bombshell revelation is dropped about the origins of their relationship—and Hardin’s mysterious past—Tessa is beside herself.
Hardin will always be...Hardin. But is he really the deep, thoughtful guy Tessa fell madly in love with despite his angry exterior—or has he been a stranger all along? She wishes she could walk away. It’s just not that easy. Not with the memory of passionate nights spent in his arms. His electric touch. His hungry kisses.
Still, Tessa’s not sure she can endure one more broken promise. She put so much on hold for Hardin—school, friends, her mom, a relationship with a guy who really loved her, and now possibly even a promising new career. She needs to move forward with her life.
Hardin knows he made a mistake, possibly the biggest one of his life. He’s not going down without a fight. But can he change? Will he change...for love?
About the Author
Anna Todd is the New York Times bestselling author of the After series, The Spring Girls, and The Brightest Stars. Always an avid reader, she began writing stories on her phone on Wattpad, the reading and writing multi-platform for original stories, with After becoming the most read series on the platform with over 1.5 billion reads. After has been published in over 30 languages, with more than 10 million copies sold worldwide, and is a #1 bestseller in Italy, Germany, France, and Spain. The film adaptation of After, which Anna is co-producing, is set to be released in early 2019. Anna and her husband currently live in Los Angeles.
Find her at AnnaTodd.com, on Twitter at @AnnaTodd, on Instagram at @AnnaTodd, and on Wattpad as Imaginator1D.
Read an Excerpt
After We Collided
It took longer than a month,” I sob as Zed finishes explaining how the bet came to be made. I feel sick to my stomach, and I close my eyes to get some relief.
“I know. He kept coming up with excuses and he kept asking for more time and he’d lower the amount he was supposed to get. It was weird. We all just thought he was obsessed with winning—like to prove a point or something—but now I get it.” Zed stops talking for a second, and his eyes scan my face. “It was all he talked about. Then, that day when I invited you to the movies, he flipped out. After he dropped you back off, he totally flipped shit on me and said I had to stay away from you. But I just laughed it off, because I thought he was drunk.”
“Did he . . . did he tell you about the stream? And the . . . other stuff?” I hold my breath as I ask. The pity in his eyes answers me. “Oh my God.” I put my hands over my face.
“He told us everything . . . I mean everything . . .” he says in a low voice.
I stay quiet and turn off my phone. It hasn’t stopped vibrating since I left the bar. He has no right to be calling me.
“Where’s your new dorm?” Zed asks, and I notice we’re near campus.
“I don’t live in a dorm. Hardin and I . . .” I can barely finish my sentence. “He convinced me to move in with him, just a week ago.”
“He didn’t,” Zed gasps.
“He did. He’s so beyond . . . he’s j-just . . .” I stutter, unable to come up with a fitting word for his cruelty.
“I didn’t know it was going this far. I thought once we saw the . . . you know, the proof . . . he’d be back to normal, seeing a different girl every night. But then he disappeared. He’s barely come around us at all, except the other night he showed up at the docks and was trying to get Jace and me to agree not to tell you. He offered Jace a shitload of money to keep quiet.”
“Money?” I say. Hardin couldn’t be lower. The space inside Zed’s truck grows smaller with each sickening revelation.
“Yeah. Jace laughed it off, of course, and told Hardin he would keep his mouth shut.”
“And you didn’t?” I ask, remembering Hardin’s busted knuckles and Zed’s face.
“Not exactly . . . I told him that if he didn’t tell you soon, I would. He didn’t like that idea, obviously,” he says, and waves at his face. “If it makes you feel any better, I do think he cares about you.”
“He doesn’t. And if he does, it doesn’t matter,” I say, and lay my head against the window.
Every kiss and touch have been shared among Hardin’s friends, every moment on display. My most intimate moments. My only intimate moments aren’t mine at all.
“Do you want to come back to my place? I don’t mean that in a pushy or creepy way. I just have a couch you could stay on until you . . . figure things out,” he offers.
“No. No, thank you. Can I use your phone, though? I need to call Landon.”
Zed nods at the phone resting on the console, and for a moment my mind wanders to thoughts of how things would be different if I hadn’t blown Zed off for Hardin after the bonfire. I would never have made all of these mistakes.
Landon answers on the second ring, and just like I knew he would, he tells me to come right over. Granted, I haven’t told him what’s up, but he’s just so kind. I give Zed Landon’s address, and he stays quiet for most of the drive across town.
“He’s so going to come after me for taking you anywhere but to him,” he finally says.
“I would apologize for being in the middle of this . . . but you guys did this to yourselves,” I say honestly. I do pity Zed slightly, because I believe he had much better intentions than Hardin did, but my wounds are too fresh to even think about that right now.
“If you need anything, call me,” he offers, and I nod before climbing out of the car.
I can see my breath coming out in front of my face in hot spurts through the cold air. I can’t feel the cold, though. I can’t feel anything.
Landon is my only friend, but he lives at Hardin’s father’s house. The irony of this is not lost on me.
“IT’S REALLY COMING DOWN out there,” Landon says as he rushes me inside. “Where’s your coat?” he scolds playfully, then flinches when I step into the light. “What happened? What did he do?”
My eyes scan the room, hoping that Ken and Karen aren’t downstairs. “That obvious, huh?” I wipe under my eyes.
Landon pulls me into his arms, and I wipe my eyes again. I no longer have the strength, physical or emotional, to sob. I’m beyond that, so far beyond it.
Landon gets me a glass of water and says, “Go up to your room.”
I manage to smile, but some perverse instinct leads me to Hardin’s door when I reach the top of the stairs. When I realize it, the pain that is so close to breaking back through stirs even more forcefully, so I quickly turn and go into the room across the hall. Memories of running across the hall to Hardin that night I heard him screaming in his sleep burn within me as I open the door. I sit awkwardly on the bed in “my room,” unsure what to do next.
Landon joins me a few minutes later. Sitting next to me, he’s close enough to show concern, yet far enough to be respectful, as is his way.
“Do you want to talk about it?” he asks kindly.
I nod. Even though repeating the whole saga hurts worse than finding out about it in the first place, telling Landon feels almost liberating, and it’s a comfort to know that at least one person didn’t actually know about my humiliation the entire time.
Listening to me, Landon is as still as stone, to the point that I can’t read what he’s thinking. I want to know what this makes him think of his stepbrother. Of me. But when I finish, he immediately jumps up with an angry energy.
“I can’t believe him! What the hell is wrong with him! Here I thought he was becoming almost . . . decent . . . and he does—this! This is so messed up! I can’t believe he would do this to you, of all people. Why would he ruin the only thing he has?”
As soon as Landon finishes speaking, his head snaps to the side.
And then I, too, notice it: footsteps rushing up the staircase. Not just footsteps, but heavy boots slamming against the wooden steps in a frenzy.
“He’s here,” we both say, and for a split second I actually consider hiding in the closet.
Landon looks at me with a very adult seriousness on his face. “Do you want to see him?”
I shake my head frantically, and Landon moves to close the door just as Hardin’s voice slices right through me.
Just as Landon reaches out his arm, Hardin bursts through the doorway and blows past him. He stops in the middle of the room, and I stand up off the bed. Not used to this sort of thing, Landon stands there, stunned for a moment.
“Tessa, thank God. Thank God you’re here.” He sighs and runs his hands over his hair.
My chest aches at the sight of him and I look away, focusing on the wall.
“Tessa, baby. I need you to listen to me. Please, just . . .”
I stay silent and walk toward him. His eyes light with hope and he reaches out for me, but when I continue past him, I catch the hope extinguishing in him.
“Talk to me,” he begs.
But I shake my head and stand next to Landon. “No—I’ll never be talking to you again!” I shout.
“You don’t mean that . . .” Hardin steps closer.
“Get away from me!” I scream as he grabs my arm.
Landon steps between us and puts his arm on his stepbrother’s shoulder. “Hardin, you need to go.”
Hardin’s jaw clenches and he looks back and forth between us. “Landon, you need to get the fuck out of the way,” he warns.
But Landon stands his ground, and I know Hardin well enough to know that he’s weighing his options, whether it’s worth punching Landon right now, in front of me.
Seeming to have decided against it, he takes a deep breath. “Please . . . give us a minute,” he says, trying to keep his calm.
Landon looks at me and my eyes plead with him. He turns back to Hardin. “She doesn’t want to talk to you.”
“Don’t you fucking tell me what she wants!” Hardin screams and his fist connects with the wall, cracking and denting the drywall.
I jump back and begin to cry again. Not now, not now, I silently repeat to try to manage my emotions.
“Go, Hardin!” Landon shouts just as Ken and Karen appear at the doorway.
Oh no. I shouldn’t have come here.
“What the hell is going on?” Ken asks.
No one says anything. Karen looks at me with sympathy, and Ken repeats his question.
Hardin glares at his father. “I’m trying to talk to Tessa, and Landon won’t mind his own damn business!”
Ken looks at Landon, then at me. “What did you do, Hardin?” His tone has changed from worried to . . . angry? I can’t quite put my finger on it.
“Nothing! Fuck!” Hardin throws his hands in the air.
“He messed everything up, is what he did, and now Tessa has nowhere to go,” Landon states.
I want to speak; I just have no idea what to say.
“She has somewhere to go, she can go home. Where she belongs . . . with me,” Hardin says.
“Hardin has been playing Tessa this entire time—he did unspeakable things to her!” Landon blurts out, and Karen lets out a gasp, stepping over to me.
I utterly shrink. I’ve never felt so naked and small. I didn’t want Ken and Karen to know . . . but it may not make much of a difference, since after tonight they surely won’t really want to see me again.
“Do you want to go with him?” Ken asks, interrupting my downward spiral.
I shake my head meekly.
“Well, I’m not leaving here without you,” Hardin snaps. He steps toward me, but I cringe away.
“I think you need to go, Hardin,” Ken surprises me by saying.
“Excuse me?” Hardin’s face is a deep shade of red that expresses what I can only describe as rage. “You’re lucky I even come here to your house—and you dare to kick me out?”
“I’ve been very happy with how our relationship has grown, son, but tonight you have to go.”
Hardin throws his hands into the air. “This is bullshit, who is she to you?”
Ken turns to me, then back to his son. “Whatever you did to her, I hope it was worth losing the only good thing you had going for you,” he says and then drops his head.
I don’t know if it was the shock of Ken’s words, or just that he’d hit a point where all the rage peaked and flowed out of him, but Hardin just stills, looks at me briefly, and marches out of the room. We all remain quiet while we listen to him walk down the stairs at a steady pace.
When the sound of the front door slamming cuts through the now-quiet house, I turn to Ken and sob, “I’m so sorry. I’ll go. I didn’t mean for any of this to happen.”
“No, you stay as long as you need. You’re always welcome here,” Ken says, and both he and Karen hug me.
“I didn’t mean to come between you,” I say, feeling terrible for the way Ken had to kick his son out.
Karen grabs hold of my hand and gives it a squeeze. Ken looks at me with exasperation and weariness. “Tessa, I love Hardin, but I think we both know that without you, there isn’t anything to come between,” he says.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Wow....I want my money back. I couldn't even finish. I feel tainted by what I have even read so far. If you want to listen to some delusional girl prattle on for pages about how she can't live without a sexist, narcissistic , jealousy driven piece of euro trash that abuses her for nearly as many pages....this is your book. (Or if you are needing another '50 shades' grade piece of soccer mom smut) I think the point I lost it and finally gave up on her growing any common sense was when her "best friend" says that line everyone keeps quoting about Hardin "loving her the only way he can" or some such nonsense. I just regret that the version I bought wasn't a hard copy so I can destroy it the way it should be. Deleting this piece of pathetic trash just doesn't quite have the desired effect.
This story romanticizes abusive relationships!
Do yourself a favor and don't waste your money. The series are nothing but a horrible boring cliche. If you really want to know what it is about, read the first chapter of the first book and the last chapter of the last book on wattpad. You don't need to waste more time and beside, It's free on wattpad.
So poorly written. This doesn't deserve the attention at all. It's so poorly written and constructed I can't wrap my head out how people find Todd talented. She's far from it, and I can't believe such atrocity was published. And it romanticizes abusive relationships. Abuse shouldn't be romanticized, period. People die from abusive relationships each year, and now thanks to the wonderful Anna Todd she has all these little girls brainwashed to believe those relationships are okay and desirable. This is utter garbage. Save your money.
So horribly written, repetitive plot, laughable characterization, laughable and ridiculous characters. My rational mind cannot comprehend how such arocity like this is praised. What has happened to actual good literature? I am absolutely appalled at the people who praise this. I feel so insulted and offended, being a writer myself. This is garbage. I can tell the positive reviews are by 13 year old girls with no idea or form of actual good writing. If you think this author is talented please read J.K Rowling's works, or Stephen King's or John Green's. I struggled so much getting through this series. So cliche and it's obvious it was a Fifty Shades of Grey fanfiction, noticing all the ideas stolen from it. Save your money and time. I wish I did.
This horribly write book is repetitive and cliché. My 6 year old brother could have written a better book. The whole book is literally, they break up then get back together. Hardin then does something to make Tessa angry and they break up again. It's just a repeating process throughout all four books. I would definitely not recommend wasting your money and time on this book.
I heard about this from one of my friends, who was obsessed with it. I decided to give it a go, hearing all the positive things about this series. Honestly, this series is utter garbage. I barely could get through the first, it was so terrible. I didn't think the atrocity could get any worse. The only people who could enjoy this garbage are people with an intellectual capacity of a turd. I could see why it got the attention, Harry Styles is used as the main character. But don't waste your time, save your brain cells.
Terrible. So terrible. Poorly written, laughable characterization, laughable plot, I should also mention cliche as well. Repetitive, oh my god don't even get me started. It starts from when Tessa found about the bet that was made on her virginity. You would think she would dumb H, but she didn't. She stayed with him and the whole story continues in to a repeating of sex solves everything when they fight. This doesn't deserve the recognition. I weep for the brainwashed fangirls praising this awful garbage. But shame on Todd for promoting and normalizing abusive relationships.. It is absolutely sickening. Now enough girls think these types of relationships are normal and happen to everyone, which is so terrifying. Please don't waste your money and most importantly do NOT listen to the good reviews. I am appalled, especially at the parents who let their children read this, and feel sorry for the parents who don't know what their child is reading, because they need to put an end to their child being brainwashed by this woman. The people who praise this is mortifying, and scares me for what our future will look like.
This is a horrible, harmful book that should not be supported. The grammar is atrocious, the plot is flat, and the relationship is abusive.
this book series reminds me of fifth harmony: trashy
Wow.. I am completely mortified thst this book published. Every girls dream to fight with a guy and have him treat you like a piece of meat and make you cry non stop? I guess if youve never been in this situation before, then this book romantic in a twisted way is for you thrill seekers. Its boring and the sex parts are stale. Yeah we get it, your the virgin mary living a fantasy of having a bad boy fall head over heels for your emotional ass. This character called tess is beyond dependent and has no back bone. Confused? How exactly? And What is the plot? Letting go or keep being a door mat? Unhealthy and uncharacteristic. 2.5 stars.
Manipulation. Obsession. Possessiveness. No real connections. Solving every problem with your vagina. Basically the majority of this book.
As purposeless and poorly constructed as the first book. I will not be buying this for my daughter for Christmas, and I will be checking her internet history from now on. Shocking to think she would read this online behind my back at age 13! Todd ought to be ashamed for encouraging them.
A continuation of the worst series I've ever read. This is so repetitive, I can't even fathom how a person could stand it. It continues with more romanticized abuse, and keeps giving false perceptions of what real relationships are. No, you cannot change your abuser, people do not change. Their relationship was not about "love" H was infatuated with Tessa, and so was she with him. They didn't "love" each other. It was lust and obsession. These tweens praising this have no idea what they're talking about. The positive reviews make me gag. Obviously, hopefully people know what Quality over Quantity is, and the amount of people praising this atrocity does not equate to it being good. The storyline is still poor and the editing still looks rushed. They fight and then have sex to solve their problems. Do not waste your money. It does not deserve this praise at all. Parents, please stop your child from being brainwashed by this story.
So horribly written, laughable plot, laughable characterization, I could go on and on. However, the main "story-line": They fight, have sex, break up and it repeats. I wish I was joking but unfortunately I am not. The whole storyline is so laughable. A romanticized abusive relationship where Tessa, the most annoying and obnoxious protagonist I have ever came across, thinks she can fix her abuser. Because everyone is fixable and that's what these young and impressionable girls need! To stay in an abusive relationship no matter how awful it gets! But seriously, this is overall disgusting, and I pity anyone who praises this. Please pick up a real book because this is not real literature.
Here we go again with another poorly constructed storyline along with more evident rushed editing. Such poor writing it made my brain hurt. The relationship displayed is abusive, romanticized to the max. Tessa just continues to be her little whiny and ignorant self. All the characters are so unlikable and selfish. Save your money and skip this. You'll really regret it.
I have read the Wattpad version of this book and now the published version. I truly believe that the editing in the published version was rushed maybe to meet certain deadlines?? If you're a first time reader (did not read the Wattpad version), then you will certainly be very confused by a lot of the conversation in this book. Scenes that are in the Wattpad version were eliminated, but referenced in the published book, so you won't know what the characters are talking about or what happened unless you read the Wattpad version. Also, I feel some very important scenes were cut from the published version that should not have been because they truly represented who the characters are or what they were going through and with scenes either eliminated or rewritten a different way, it really changes my outlook on the whole personifcation of the characters. I just didn't feel like they would have reacted the same way with some of the rewritten versions in the published book. One example is the first big break up, you can understand why it happened in the Wattpad version, but the published version eliminates so much and replaces what happened w/something so minor and trivial, it just makes no sense that a break up occurred at all in my opinion. I do love the overall storyline, but was disappointed with the editing in this book. I will continue to support Anna and hope that the editing has improved and things have been thought out better in the rest of this series.
This was so repetitive, cliche, and just awful. Also, too much unnecessary drama. It's so poorly written, it's laughable. It's sincerely appalling how this series is getting so much praise when it doesn't deserve it. The abuse being glorified is also appalling, especially because the demographic for this series are very young impressionable girls. Please don't buy this, or for your child.
A poor inexcuse for literaure. Continuing with a dragged out plot, where they fight and have sex because everything solves problems with sex. The editing was evidently rushed, and remains poor. This doesn't deserve the praise at all. All the people praising it are young girls with no sense. This features more glorification of an abusive relationship, which I find atrocious. The whole storyline is beyond laughable. Save your money.
Horrible. Horribly written and cliched, romanticizes abusive relationships, don't even waste your time.
So laughable and repetitive. Please save your money and time because I wish I did. Overall so poor and repetitive. Unlikable characters and zero originality. Domestic violence is highly glorified.
This was a great book. I continued to read the entire series but I have to say there was way too much drama on pretty much every page. At times it was overwhelming and I had to put the book down and pick it back up the next day. I love reading books with lots of drama but it just kept coming in this book. As soon as I felt relieved and something good was going to happen I turned the page and there was more drama. If you love lots of drama then this is the book for you.
Just atrocious. The storyline is poorly executed, and the editing was very rushed. The lack of grammar is appalling, and the abuse that's being glorified is disgusting. I also noticed it's so cliched. Please save your money.
I can't comprehend with my rational mind how an atrocious series like this was published. The writing is completely awful, and the plot is so poorly executed. The romanticization of abuse is also jaw-dropping. It's disgusting. I hope parents will see what they are buying their children, because this is highly inappropriate.